he blinded me with science

It is past my bedtime

2008-05-10T06:59:30Z

For the first time ever stress has made me sick. I woke up and complained to my mom that my neck was stiff and my head hurt and she was like "oh that's stress, welcome to my world lol".

I'm almost finished with this semester. I have my Bio final on Tuesday and the final for Music on Thursday. I had the option of taking my Music final on Thursday but I decided to skip out because I wasn't feeling too good (and I stayed up finishing my essay and never got around to studying). I kind of regret is now because the final will take less than 10 minutes to do and it feels like a waste to commute so much just for that.

Also found this. Ugh. I hate the idea but it doesn't really matter since lots of people probably will buy this kind of stuff for their kids (why bother spending so much anyway since kids grow so fast!). At the store I work we get Baby Phat and Apple Bottoms clothing for little girls too and its way over priced compared to some of the other cute (but not designer!) clothes. Meh, maybe it's just me that doesn't see the appeal of designer clothes...because I'm poor...and rather spend it on useless stuff...

berrybell @ 2008-05-06T19:54:00

2008-05-07T02:18:35Z

My mom got laid off from her job today. She works for CTDI which has a contract with Qwest, but Qwest is merging with another company or something so all the employees are being laid off. She's been working there for years and many other employees have been working there for over 20 years. I don't really know what to say about this except that I'm worried about my family's financial situation right now. My mom was making $20 an hour from her job (which was what my dad was making with a full and part time job put together). She was really lucky to find that job since she only has an elementary school education. Now she's worried she won't be able to find anything that'll pay even close to that. I'm probably going to take out a loan to pay for school from now since my dad won't be able to pay for it.

The next few days will be the death of me

2008-05-03T04:28:48Z

bawwwwww I have so much work to do because I was a dumbass and procrastinated

To do list:
- stupid English essay (only ~~four~~ six pages done T_T)
~~- response to case study solution for Bio~~
- poster for Bio project
- about 7 chapters worth of notes for Psy. I'm so behind in this class and I've gotten low B's on the two exams so far. It's making me depressed because this is my major and I'm not doing good in it at all :(
- study for Psy final on Wed.
- listen to CDs for Music Appreciation final on Wed.
- study for Bio final next Tues.

Time left to do this:
~~- today, Friday until 1AM when I go to bed~~
~~- Saturday from 12 to 5:30 (before that I have to do chores). And maybe when I get home from work I can maybe squeeze in an hour of studying before I need to sleep.~~ edit: this whole day was wasted because I am stupid
- Sunday sucks because when I wake up I have to get ready to go to work because my hours are in the middle of everything since on Sundays stores open later and close early (I'd rather work early and leave early). If I'm not too tired I'll probably work on the poster.
- only have from 6-10 to study on Monday because I have to go to sleep (if I don't get at least 8 hrs of sleep I can't function the rest of the day so I have no idea how people are able to pull off these "all-nighters").

I tried to put in a two weeks notice at work but the store manager didn't want to let me go since the store is so understaffed. I'll be working on weekends only starting in a week or two so that should leave the weekdays open for me to look for another job. I was thinking about going to an agency but they usually only have temp jobs for a few days/weeks and what I really need is a steady job for the next couple of months. Too bad I don't have enough experience to work anywhere besides a clothes store/fast food restaurant, but even that isn't enough (I applied at Wal-Mart a few weeks ago and never got a call back).

Advise: don't browse wtf_inc when you're eating

2008-04-19T01:23:24Z

Finished registering for classes (had to pay another $200 which is the entire amount I got on my check today ;_;). I bumped up my class load to 5 this time. Hopefully it won't overload me since I'm taking them all on the same days (Mon & Wed). Only one of the classes I'm taking has to do with Psychology, all the rest are those boring general core curriculum classes. I figured I'd take those first to get them out of the way. I wonder if other people do this as well. There are a couple of seniors in my Biology class so waiting till their final semesters to take the general classes.

Tomorrow might be fun, going to the aquarium with my mom and nephews (well, I sort of have to since one of my labs is a field trip). Now I need to start on that English essay. x_x Since the day it's due is only a workshop maybe I can get away with only finishing half of it..

Color me confused

2008-04-17T20:05:42Z

Regarding the new Rozen Maiden story: um excuse me but wtf? This story looks like it takes place in an alternate universe. o_O At the beginning Jun circles "not wind" in the first page (as opposed to when he circles "wind") Then there's a time skip and he starts receiving Shinku but piece by piece. Then at the end he receives a phone call from himself in another alternate universe? Again, wtf. Oh Peach-Pit, was it too much to ask for you to finish your story from where you left off? It looks like they're just starting all over. :\

Math = my worst subject ever

2008-04-16T23:12:14Z

I need to take College Algebra but the scores I got on the ACT and SAT aren't good enough to even take the placement exam to get into the actual class inself! I need to take this class before I can take Statistics and Research Methods as well. Crap. Maybe I can take either test again and take the class later (I keep pushing back the time when I want to take this darn class). The whole registering for classes is stressful for me because I never know if what I'm picking is right. I wish I could talk to an adviser but they have all these rules and requirements and it feels like you can't go in and just talk to them if have a question.

Yay!

2008-04-16T19:52:35Z

I started buying doujinshi too late!! Hardly anyone is making RM doujin anymore so the only ones left in online shops are the hentai ones. The doujin I got is called "PRIGIONIA" and it's by this circle called Sugar (s) Pot (they mostly do hentai which is kind of amusing). The art is adorable as you can probably tell from the cover but it's not really a comic but a collection of sketches and stuff, oh well!

The doujin I bought from ebay hasn't arrived yet but is called "Conclusion". It's by this circle called Raid Slash. They are a very awesome circle and are known for the quality of their art and storytelling. They have 4 Rozen Maiden doujin series. "Crossfire" and "Conclusion" are a series and it's basically a story of the author's interpretation on what the ending should be. There's also "Clown Master" and the only one I haven't read called "The Junk". Lately they've been making a lot of Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha doujinshi (they're even making one featuring Wolkenritter!). I heard a scanslation of one of the Nanoha doujins is on Animesuki but I haven't checked.

The only Reborn! doujinshi I bought. In my opinion the whole fandom is oversaturated with yaoi. So trying to find quality gen stuff is a little hard. xD I only bought this one because I heard that there's a Lambo x I-pin story in it (my OTP!) But alas it was only 2 pages long. Still, the other stories in it are nice too. There's one with Gokudera inviting Tsuna over to his house the first time and it's really cute how excited Gokudera gets. The last story is with Yamamoto visiting Squalo in the hospital after the events of the Varia arc. It's one of those serious stories with a lot of text so I had no idea what was going on. Heh.

What's this, THREE Toward the Terra doujin (you can't really see the third one)? Toward the Terra has replaced Rozen Maiden as my "pet" series that I'll fawn over for the next couple of years. Luckily this show barely ended last year so there's still a lot of nice doujinshi to buy. The three I got are all by the same circle called PiyoPiko. Her art isn't "drool-worthy" like this other circle called Green Company but I really like it and it fits with the fact that almost all her doujin are gag.

lolol this should have been predictable. Honestly I was surprised that there was doujinshi for this. I read a while ago that fanart of live action shows was kind of an "iffy" subject in Japan which is why so many Den-O fanart sites have complicated password questions you have to answer in order to get in. xD Anyway, the art in the one I got is really nice but the pairing is just...weird. I mean, Momotarous/Yuuto? That's just so out there for me ~~especially since Momo is tsundere for Ryoutaru~~.

I hope artists continue to make Kamen Rider doujin though. I want some Kiva doujinshi!

I also got a Mononoke doujinshi but I don't feel like writing about it, maybe later.

BTW all the pictures were taken this crappy camera I found under the desk. I have no idea where we got it. I think it's my little brother's because there was a bunch of pictures of his ugly mug on it and I think my mom found the camera too because there were pictures of her making funny faces. o_O

This week will be hell: Due 4/22 - 4pg case study solution for Bio and 10-15pg draft for English. AND I HAVEN'T ON EITHER LOL. There's also some notes I'm supposed to do for Psych but I've gotten low Bs on the exams so far so there's no way I can bump my grade up any higher so whatever. More exams at the beginning of May. Good thing I only have two finals!

Well that's nice.

2008-04-16T04:45:55Z

Walked out of my first class today and was greeted by large posters in the middle of campus with pictures of aborted fetuses and baby guts. I think I could have gone my whole life without seeing that.

EDIT: Noooo. My doujinshi was delivered today but no one was there to greet the mailman (my dad was home but he never answers the door). I hope they come by tomorrow since I'm off. I don't want to go to the post office to pick it up. Well, at least now I know why Manadrake's shipping is so expensive, the package only took 3 days to get delievered through EMS. The package I'm getting from ebay will take 3 weeks because I only payed $4 for standard SAL shipping.

Oh and I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. I'm scared that he might scold me. I haven't worn my retainer in so long that my teeth are starting to shift and there's a gap between my front two teeth. :/

RAAAGE

2008-04-14T04:59:07Z

Ahhhhhh. I didn't get off work today until 9. I usually get off at 7:30 but the new people that were hired do not have any kind of common sense what so ever. The manager tell everyone immediately after the store closes to pick up everything off the floor and put back the clothes on the racks that are in the fitting room. They usually don't care about whether or not everything is organized or not since everyone wants to go home early. Sound simple right? Well today most the people working there were all new (except for 3 of us and the manager). Well some of the new people are kind of lazy (especially this one girl who kept going to the bathroom every hour. She's in charge of the home department and we usually have to help her clean up because she spends the whole day just walking around. Seriously, I know the job only pays $7 an hour but suck it up and do your goddamn job). At around 7:15 I finally finished cleaning up the fitting room. So what do I find? 6 racks full of clothes still on the sales floor. Now these racks are not small, in fact it takes around 10 minutes to go around the store with one rack and put back the clothes. What are the new people doing? They are sizing. Ahhhh. I was pissed. Sizing is the nitpicky stuff of making sure the clothes is on the right hanger and stuff. We usually only size on the slow days when there's nothing to do so the store looks nice. I wanted to scream because everything was still on the floor and these people are going through each individual piece of clothing, checking the tag, removing something that's in the wrong department and going to the right department to put it away. I told one girls that she should focus on picking up the clothes that are the floor but she said she'll get around to it later. I try really hard to not get an attitude with her and just go about doing my job. I put back 3 racks of clothes until the manager finally decides to get out of her office to see why we are taking so long. So ya we stayed until 9 because people wasted over an hour. I was at that stupid store today from 11am to 9pm. FUCK. I can't wait until May when my classes finish so I can finally quit. This time I'll apply for a job through an agency of something.

I didn't even get time to work on my homework today because when I got home at 9:30 I had to shower, eat dinner, and write this entry. xD Now it's time to sleep (and then wake up tomorrow at 8am to get ready for work ahhhh).

I complain way too much. The only reason I typed this up was because my mom was sleeping when I got home so I couldn't complain to her like I usually do. lol

Also sorry if this post makes no sense, I don't feel like proofreading it.

Someone give me money plz

2008-04-13T06:10:21Z

Whiling driving to work I passed a really bad car accident. The ambulance was leaving but I could see blood on the road which was upsetting.

On a brighter note I spent almost $100 today buying my first doujinshi. Oh no wait, that's bad. I swear I'll never spend this much on such an impulse buy. But seriously, now I know how people spend thousands of dollars on this hobby. Doujinshi is flippin expensive, unless you live in Japan and don't have to pay shipping.

Ahhhhhhh

2008-04-07T20:15:17Z

I felt invigorated today for some reason. I cleaned out my closet and took out all the stuff that doesn't fit me. I've come to conclusion that I need to stop buying from the juniors department. Pretty much all my clothes is from there which is why it doesn't fit me (juniors clothing is not meant for ladies with big busts ;o) Maybe now would be a good time to maybe change my style. lol Though I don't think I really had a 'style' before. My closet is very empty now.

Also, I just wanted to plug this site I found the other day: Muxtape. It's pretty nice and I've already discovered lots of new music from here.

I did something different today.

2008-04-06T03:16:29Z

I went a sauna with my mom. I pretty much died of embarrassment having to shower in front of other ladies, but hey at least I got to sweat a lot.

Quick Post

2008-03-25T02:56:20Z

Went to Magic Mountain today! It was mostly fun (I'll write more on that later). The Superman ride completely destroyed my neck so I have a killer headache now. I really wanted to work on my homework too--well not really, I just wanted to finish it. I guess I'll have to work on it tomorrow in the morning. Why do professors make projects due right after spring break? :(

berrybell @ 2008-03-22T20:28:00

2008-03-23T02:30:20Z

Yay I have internet access! We stopped in Arizona for the night and will keep going in the morning. However, my dad was a retard and accidently reserved a room with only one king bed. Some people are going to have to sleep on the floor tonight.

SPRING BREAK!

2008-03-22T05:03:23Z

So I'm leaving in about 4 hours for California~

Going with my family to visit relatives and go to Disneyland and stuff. :P Nothing special but I haven't gone on vacation in years. It'll be awkward running around Disneyland since I'm 'older' but I don't care (I'm going to get an autograph book because I lost the one I got when I was little). I can't wait, except for the long car ride getting there, bleh. My mom bought a DVD player for the car but I probably won't watch anything because doing anything in the car, besides looking out the window, makes me a headache and makes me nauseous.

I'll see you all in a week. :D

Stupid Allergies

2008-03-16T16:11:33Z

Stupid Ross needs to stop being such a shitty store and hire more people! I tried to call in sick and the store manager told me "no" because there was no one to cover to my shift because the store is always short on employees on Sundays. Now I have to go to work. Can't say I'll be nice to the customers though.

You'll never roam alone

2008-03-12T03:09:51Z

http://youtube.com/watch?v=FHXEqC5BCus&feature=related
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ShQQz10gzbg&feature=related
http://youtube.com/watch?v=5jDm8eIMCpw&feature=related

Silly Hispanics and their paranormal encounters. A few years ago everyone down there was freaking about chupacabras and ufos, now it's these little gnome things ("duendes") that are supposedly being spotted in South America. I believe in aliens and stuff but these gnomes things makes me laugh. Especially in the videos where everyone freaks out and run away screaming like little girls. So fake. If I saw one of those little things I'd probably chase it ~~and steal his lucky charms~~. They're so tiny what's so scary?

Also I got an A on my Bio exam! Yay!

RAGE

2008-03-06T23:03:39Z

WHY DID CHRISTIAN WIN? FUCK. I HATE YOU PR I HATE YOU SO MUCH. I think the only reason he won was because Victoria Beckham couldn't stop spazzing over his clothes. Ugh.

Anyway I'm mad Christian won. Sure he's a good designer but everything is the same: fitted jackets, skinny pants, ruffles, etc. I think Rami was right about what he said about Christian, "he only designs for models not real women". Also this pisses me off because in season 2 one of the reasons the judges voted against Daniel was because he was too young, but they completely went against that this season because Christian is younger than Daniel. So unfair. Speaking of Rami, I think he should have won. Sure he's an ass but his collection was nice and the most "wearable". The other collections were too artsy and I couldn't imagine people besides models wearing them.

WOAH

2008-03-01T00:57:41Z

I come home today from work to discover that my little brother made a hole in the wall while he was home alone. With his head. He tripped and hit the wall with his head so hard that he made a hole in it. wtf

And suddenly I don't mind being short.

2008-02-27T04:43:16Z

Today was really "blah". I got such bad cramps today that I skipped Music Appreciation to sit in the student lounge area. Later in lab my group was the last to leave because we didn't understand the material. I felt kind of dumb compared to everyone else in the class, they finished fast and didn't have as much trouble as my group did.

And then at the end of the day I find out that the stupid light-rail trains were all delayed 35 minutes. So I wait in the cold for my train. But the trains were all so full. The first one that came by I couldn't get on because they were so stuffed up. My cramps were starting to come back and my then my nose was starting to get runny so when the next train came by and I decided I would get on it no matter what. Some guy in front on me couldn't fit so he gave up and stepped back, but I was smaller so I just casually stuffed myself in between two other people (I think they were mad at me for this because the train was already pretty full). The train stayed full until the very last stop so there was a huge traffic jam trying to get out of the stupid station. But things weren't so bad once I got home because dad bought CAKE.

I also made some Precure icons, and they look pretty decent in my opinion. Maybe I should post em or something, but I've never posted on the precure lj community before (Honestly, I think I lurk at most of the communities I'm in lol).

Lighto was Righto

2008-02-09T04:18:29Z

That new Death Note spin-off chapter thing came out:

So basically this chapter takes place a few years after the end of the series. There's a new Kira who kills the sick and elderly who wish to be killed by the Death Note. So scene change to Near who is still ronery and in desperate need of a hair cut:

Stupid sexy Near, why do you have to look like L?

Near is the new L and thinks that the mercy killings the new Kira is doing are wrong. (Also Aizawa is in charge of the police now yaaaay)There's a weird flashback in Wammy House where Near hears L say that he solves crimes out of personal enjoyment and not a sense of justice (wuuuuut). Near goes on tv as L to condemn Kira etc,etc. Well anyway everything works out in the end because the new Kira kills himself with the Death Note.

I really want to watch the new Death Note movie. It barely came out today though so who knows how long it'll take for a fansubbed version to come out. :(

Ah there's going to be a Den-O vs. Kiva special!! Ryoutarou goes back to 1986 to meet Otoya and Wataru gets possessed by Momo (lol). And Ryoutarou gets possessed by yet another Imagin (they must all really like him or something). I'm glad this wasn't a rumor. Still, why couldn't Toei have started doing these specials earlier like those Super Sentai ones. I want a Blade vs 555 special...

too sleepy to care about spellcheck

2008-02-05T05:30:15Z

This lady at work has been saying rude things about me. In the break room when I walked in she started more rude comments about me in Spanish and the guy next to is like "Hey she's right behind you" (in Spanish). So then she says "She doesn't understand what I'm saying!". When she said this I turn my head around and looked right her and said "Are you talking to me?" (in Spanish). After that she stayed quiet and didn't look at me when she was organizing the shoes (I was in the fitting room which is next to the shoes so I was basically standing next to her). But after that she acted like nothing happened when she brought a pair of shoes for me to hold for her. Why do people do this? I don't know her name, never had a conversation with her and don't work her (she's a stock room worker and I'm a floor associate so we have different shifts) so I have no idea what her problem was. Maybe she thinks I'm rude or something because I never talk? But I don't see why that should bother her.

Die writer's block die!

2008-02-04T06:26:38Z

I've been sitting at the computer for the past hour trying to come up with something to write for my essay. I hate when this happens.

Also, I wish microbes really were this cute.

Yes! PreCure 5 GoGo

2008-02-03T07:43:39Z

So the newest Precure series aired today. The henshin scenes look nice, but judging from the quality of the first season I'm guessing about 50% of the budget was probably blown on animated them. xD But overall the first episode was nice. Even though Toei is obviously milking this franchise to death, I don't mind because I always end up eating up magical girl shows like these ._. B-but, it's s obvious that Milky Rose is Milk! I would've liked to be surprised but even the name gives it away. Still I'm glad she has a human form now. ~~Yay I can ship her with Karen.~~

berrybell @ 2008-01-30T20:01:00

2008-01-31T03:17:12Z

1. Great, it's snowing. I think when I finally move out of the house I'll go back to California because I really hate snow.

2. LOL. If you google 'dangerous cult' the scientology site comes up first.

3. The chinese food I just ate had a shit load of garlic and now my mouth has a bad after taste.

4. New episode of Project Runway is now right now, but I don't feel like watching it. Too tell the truth I hate most of the designers this season. The only ones I like are Chris and Sweet P, but they aren't the best designers so I don't think they'll last too long. :( Overall all this season has been a real let down for me. I also wish I could slap Christian. I never thought it was humanly possible to be that annoying (yet so many people like him! why?!?).

5. Talked to this girl I knew in high school. It was awkward at first but I kind of miss the friends I had in high school, we all kind of drifted apart. D: I also live like a block away from an old high school friend but I never bothered to visit her after we graduated because I'm an awful person.life: